Saturday, September 16, 2006
i hate it when it's time of the month. i hate it when im bleeding so profusely that it affects my mood and i need some1 ard. i hate it someone comes along n that random person fits the bill. i hate it when it's the wrong person being ard at the right time. i hate it when people are too nice to me. i hate it when im confused with my own feelings and am at a loss of wad to do next. i hate it when ppl start telling me things i dread to hear most.
i hate it when i wake up with a heavy heart to know that i've missed another lecture cos i overslept. i hate it when it's late at night and i still cant sleep. i hate it when some1 has to coax me to sleep n i hate the fact that i feel so comfortable that i actually do fall asleep. i hate it when people are judging me based on my looks and my physique. i hate it when people ard me are hurt and they cant move on. i hate it when xj cant book out and i got to spend my weekend alone. i hate it i hate it i hate when i cant do my maths tutorials when im supposedly to be rather good at maths. i hate it when it's odd weeks as i got to submit my socio essays which i always take a very long time to complete. i hate it when there're tests n exams ard the corner and im still not sleeping well. i hate it when i've ZERO socio life and i miss all my old pals. i hate it when i cant understand wad the lecturer is yakking about in the lecture hall, not caring abt whether the students understood him. i hate it when i dun have a fixed class and i miss 04s6b. i hate it when i cant confide in anybody cos im afraid my worries are too childish for them.
i hate it i hate it i hate it. i hate myself.
currently, im facing a personal crisis and im not eating well. im scaring ppl ard me as im growing thinner and thinner, not that im very fat to begin with. mom reckons im skinnier now too. hell. wad's going on.
dee aka dil
wishing;
9/16/2006 03:50:00 PM
